It has been difficult to put into words the effect caused by so many layers of confusion, deciet and hurt. Thank you Jon for stepping up and filling in some blanks. Your blog and personal contact have stimulated my healing process dramatically. I have wrestled with the memories of what events happened that took me out of my spiritual community, severed bonds with close brothers and sisters, and created a shunning towards myself and family. It has been refreshing to realize I was not crazy or spiritually off when I expressed checks and asked questions in my role as a council member about church merge finances. I didn't realize at the time that my opinion or concerns were not in line with the program, making me and ultimately my family a liability. It was an extremely confusing and hurtful time that is still being relived a decade later. All these years later I still struggle to find the goodness of God in all this mess as the trail of tears and damage does not justify the actions of anyone. But my hope is not for beating a brother up to bring payback. But for supernatural healing to spring forth as a result of this dialogue. That friendships and people would be restored. It's been ten years too long wrestling with this painful experience. I choose today, that we would all find peace and healing. Mark Blackstone